When i asked Micah what he wanted most for Christmas... he said a shaving kit. So, he got one. And he loves to shave... especially with Daddy.
Micah is slowly entering the "boy" stage. The REAL boy stage. Where he tries to connect with Daddy every chance he gets, and disconnect from mom every chance he gets. I don't mean that he doesn't want me around. It's just that, things that used to make him adore me, he now loathes. Such as: bragging about him to people, getting down on one knee to embrace when I pick him up from school, and being silly in public (like skipping through Sam's club singing "Lions and tigers and bears, oh-my!")
Oh my. I'm not ready for this. I'm struggling to find new ways to connect with him. Teaching him at home helps. Because it gives us a "shared interest." We can study science or social studies and talk about his ideas and things that interest him.
But this "boy" thing is what I dreaded -- when laying on that table, belly exposed, and the doctor looked at the fuzzy black and white screen and announced "it's a boy!"
Boy? I don't know anything about boys!
But until now, it hasn't been so bad. I can throw a ball, and can hang out in forts and can even wrestle around on the ground. But that was KID stuff. This is BOY stuff. And no matter what I can "do," I'm not a boy. And so I don't fit in. And Dr. James Dobson, in "Bringing up Boys," says that this is a good thing. and necessary thing. He is a boy. And one day a man.
and I will forever be "mom." Unashamedly embracing, and embarrassing, mom.


